>"HOW? I ask myself. HOW do I go about this Phase? I'm at that point in life where it feels like the clock is ticking just too fast. I'm stuck in a dilemma where I feel just like a little child with crazy fantasies. HOW? I mean, just HOW did I grow up so fast? I was just six yesterday.
It scares me to think of how FAST I'm growing into a full adult endowed with so much RESPONSIBILITIES and people to look out for with my RESOURCES. There are targets to hit. Heights to scale. Goals to attain The dream is just too BIG, but how can this BE?
The Anxiety, failures, rejection, low self-esteem just seems to be overwhelming. Every night, I lie in bed wondering how can I complete this task and sometimes I would often feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm Still yet to solve the PUZZLE. So God, could you please help my HUSTLE?"
I honestly don't know how to label this above write-up, whether it's a poetry or simply a fictitious work. After a difficult day today with a lot of people trying to get on my nerves, I lay on my bed feeling depressed and unhappy. I just had to express my frustrations in writing on my notepad. Even Though i'm not much of a poet, I often sometimes jot my thoughts in a notebook, so I thought I'd share some of my imaginative ideas. To be honest, the anxiety I feel about my future and its uncertain outcome is really overwhelming. I mean, yes everyone has massive plans, wants to be rich, find a wonderful partner, have a healthy marriage, kids and all of that. Is it just me or does anybody thinks that all of these actually looks and feels scary? And it's as though time is going so incredibly fast.
However, my confidence in God, partially in myself, and in my goals and objectives has somehow given me the courage to confront some of the difficulties I have so far faced, but it has also brought about uncertainty and fear. I've had friends and other people question my beliefs and ask me for proof of all my hard work, which has made me feel anxious and doubtful. I keep asking myself sometimes, "Will this work?, how can this be?". I now understand reasons why most person's are being driven into doing Illegal acts just to earn a living but that's not a fair excuse though.
Nevertheless, I 've grown to embrace my fear, and I believe it's normal and generally OK to have doubt, anxiety, and uncertainty since they're all a part of life. Even the greatest men of all time once faced obstacles like these. Anxiety, rejections, doubt, failures, and many more things. I had a mentor whom I followed up his success story. When I initially started trading and was experiencing massive losses, I was compelled to ask him how he felt when he lost all of the money in his trading account. He told me, "Having losses and failures are inevitable and unavoidable, and that,all you have to do is pick yourself up and continue from where you left off. That's the power of consistency.
Well, I'm trying my best to be patient with myself while also building confidence, first in God and then in myself. Consistency is never an easy journey. It may be challenging to continue the process, but I think that with time, everything will fall into place and we will emerge stronger, bigger, and better.
Well, untill next time,Do,have a nice Day.
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